Thursday Thirteen ~ 1st Edition!

I'm new to the T13 community, so here goes the first one!!!

I have had a rough past couple weeks and this Lifehouse cd had totally put my life and feelings to music...exactly how I feel. They have always been one of my favorites, but right now they are my favorite band and I cant stop listening to it.

My 13 All-Time Favorite Lifehouse Songs:

1. You Say (this song isnt officially on an album, its on their demo. Its a song about having faith and trusting God even when you cant see where He is taking you.)

2. Revolution Cry (again only on the demo. Its about God's people rising up and there being a revolution on the earth that shakes the darkness and brings hope to all.)

3. Everything (this song is my heart's cry. God is All I want, All I need, and Everything!)

4. Breathing (this song brought me through a couple weeks where God felt so distant and no matter how hard I looked and fought, I couldnt see Him. It says, "Cause I am hanging on every word You say, even if You dont wanna speak to night, thats alright with me. Cause I want nothing more than to sit outside Heaven's door and listen to You breathing, its where I want to be." I just wanted to hear Him again.)

5. Somewhere In Between (My line: "Would you catch me if I fall out of what I fell in. Dont be surprised if I collapse down at Your feet again. I dont want to run away from this, I know that I just dont need this....Im somewhere in between what is real and just a dream." I was continuously falling down at His feet and just waiting.)

6. Quasimodo (My line: "There goes my pain, there goes my shame...did you see them falling because this feeling that has no meaning. There goes the world off of my back." I have always felt immense shame and guilt for the past, but God told me that I need to overcome by the word of my testimony...like in Revelation 12:11, and be free because of what He has done that erases my sin.)

7. Take Me Away (It says, "This time, All I want is You, there is no one else, that could take Your place. YOu see past all the rags, youve taken them away....Take me away! Take me away! Ive got nothing left to say, just take me away!" I want to be with God in the midst of everything and my heart is for HIm to Take me away! Take me away to be with Him!)

8. Broken (This song talks about the strength there is in being weak and broken before God. "Im falling apart, Im barely breathing. With a broken heart thats still beating, In the pain there is healing, In Your name I find meaning. So I'm holding on, barely holding onto You." I had a very weak moment about a week ago and I did something I regret. I was broken and I ran away instead of running to God. I long for brokenness and for Him to break me, to be weak so He can be strong. I'm holding onto Him.)

9. Storm (My life has been one big sorm. There is the calm moments, but there are other times where the rain and lightening is all I can see. IN this song it talks about God delivering you from the storm and bringing peace and calm to your heart. "If I could just see You, everything would be alright...And I will walk on water, and You will catch me if I fall. And I will get lost into Your eyes, I know eyerything will be alright.)

10. You And Me (This is typically used as a love song...but its my love song with my Jesus. "Cause its You and me, and all other people and I dont know why, but I cant keep my eyes off of You." I am locking eyes with God and I know that He never takes His eyes off of me, I cant look away, He's to beautiful, He has captivated me.)

11. Hanging By A Moment ("I'm falling even more in lov ewith You, letting go of all Ive held onto. I'm standing here until You make me move, I'm hanging by a moment here with You. I'm living for the only thing I know, I'm running and not quite sure where to go...there's noting else to lose, nothing else to find, nothing in the world that could change my mind, there is nothing else." There is nothing else but Him that matters. I'm chasing after Him, and falling deeper in love every second of it!)

12. Unknown ("I am falling into grace, to the unknown to where You are. And faith makes everybody scared, its the unknown, I dont know, that keeps me hanging on and onto You." I dont know where God is taking me, but I'm trusting Him and putting my life in His hands. The unknown scares me, but also makes me so excited!)

13. Simon (The whole song. I cant even say. "Refuse to feel anything at all, Refuse to slip, Refuse to fall. Can't be weak, Can't stand still, You watch your back 'cause no one will. You don't know why they had to go this far, Traded your worth for these scars, For your only company. And don't believe the lies That they have told to you. Not one word was true you're alright, you're alright, you're alright." The enemy was yelling his lies in my ears constantly, and I had my thoughts, and I had what my sisters were telling me, and what GOD was trying to say above all the voices. In the song Breathing it says, "Im trying to identify the voices inside my head, God which one is You?" God is defining my worth, He is telling me who I am. No one else can do that for me, not even myself...only the creator.)

Sorry it was so long, I'm a writer and you will learn that I write A LOT! It was pretty deep for my first one. Feel free to leave comments! =)

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A Very Hard Week...=( -part one-

I am so happy that this week is finally over! It was one of the hardests that I have had in a long time. It started to suck last sunday, 8.3.08, at 1:00 inthe morning when I got a text from one of my very close friends. They were needing my to get ahold of Aly cause they needed to talk. I asked why....they wouldnt tell me at first, but I pryed and they opened up. (for privacy issues I am not going to use gender or name.) Turns out this friend of mine tried to kill themself that night. They said, "If it werent for a text message from this girl, you would have never heard my voice again." They were going and started to hang themself. I broke down completely, sending text after text to Aly...even though I knew she probably had her phone off and was sleeping since they were driving home from Alabama. It shook me up to the core, I was rocked by this happening, I guess because our relationship has been rocky and now that things are normal again...I'm scared of losing them again. I couldnt sleep, and was up really late fighting on my knees for this person, until finally I was emotionally exhausted and zonked out. The next day at work, I get a txt from this persons dad, and he wanted to talk to me. He wanted me to tell him my story and everything that was said the night before, and if I knew why my friend would want to do this. The conversation went okay, except for the part where I completely lost it. Just the thought of what went on and what could have happened made me sick and totally break down emotionally. I was a wreck for like 2 days. I spent the tuesday night with my friend, and all day on wednesday. I got to their house and tackled them, I was soooo happy to see my little friend...alive and well. =) That was one of the scariest things Ive ever been through, it was the second time theyve attempted since Ive known them, and harder than the first. They had talked about it, but I would have never thought that they would try it again. =( well all is okay now, my friend is going to be getting counseling and help so this wont happen again. I love this person with all I am...and dont know what I would do if anything happened. Please pray for the healing and the process that is unfolding.

Six Quirky Things About Me =)

Melanie at Monday Through Sunday tagged me...what a turd! Here we go:

1) Link to the person who tagged me.
2) Mention the rules.
3) Tell six quirky yet boring, unspectacular details about myself.
4) Tag six other blogger´s by linking to them.
5) Go to each person’s blog and leave a comment that lets them know they’ve been tagged.

1. I speak 2 languages. Spanish and English. Most of the time it turns into Spanglish because I randomly insert spanish words or phrases into daily conversation. It drives people crazy. A veces I forget what lengua I'm speaking y entonces it comes out como esto.

2. I'm a textaholic. A typical month contains about 8,000 text messages. Its my main form of conversation and communication.

3. I hate amusement parks! Everyone thinks places like 6 Flags/Elitches ar fun? Oh heck no! Not me! I am deathly scared of hights and things like roller coasters and really high water slides are torture for me~ My eyes are clamped shut the entire time and I do not enjoy it at all! The only amusement park I've ever been to and actually had fun on the rides was Disneyworld. Its sooooo fun!

4. I hate coffee! Its the most vile drink on the planet. Everyone loves it, but not me. Gross!

5. My best friend Mariah and I have a bunch of weird noises we make. Bird calls, random songs, and then theres the Run Jump Tackle! Teehee. We also enjoy watching P.S. I Love YOu (its our movie) and we can quote the entire movie. We like reinacting it too. The other night, we got in boxer shorts and were dramatically singing along with the movie, "The Man That Got Away." and videotaping it.

6. I write way too much, I write everything. Notes, prayers, text messages I want to keep, God Time, EVERYTHING! I can fill up a fairly large ournal in 4-5 months. It can be a good thing, but also bad because its my way of venting when I should probably talk to someone about it.

~Seeing as how I dont know anyone who blogs, if you read this then TAG! YOURE IT! Let me know if you participate so I can read it!~ Also comment on mine!

Abortion: Milions of Unjustified Murders

Wilberforce's Grandson on the Inhumanity of Abortion
Wednesday, MARCH 19, 2008
by Gerard Wilberforce
I am writing as the great great grandson of William Wilberforce, who campaigned vigorously for the ending of the transatlantic slave trade in 1807, which ultimately paved the way for the abolition of slavery itself throughout the entire British Empire in 1833.
I am often asked what would be the campaigns Wilberforce would be fighting if he were alive in 21st century Britain. I believe that there would be a number of different issues – among them human trafficking and the scourge of drugs. But almost certainly at the top of the list, would be the issue of abortion.
As the Human Fertilisation and Embryology Bill comes before Parliament over the next few weeks, the opportunity presents itself to amend the abortion Act. With the number of abortions having reached 200,000 per year in the UK alone, the time is right to tighten up the law that was designed to protect women by ending illegal abortion, but never to allow such a high degree of deprived life.
There are great similarities between the status of the foetus and the status of African slaves two centuries ago. Slaves were considered a commodity to do with whatever the vested interests of the day decided. Today, in our desire to play God in our embryology experimentation, with all its’ unfulfilled promises of miracle cures, and our decision to abort unwanted children, we are no better that those slave traders who put their interests and world view higher than they placed the sanctity and value of human life.
Most people at the time didn’t believe the evil of slavery could ever be defeated, as so much of the economy at the time was dependent on the trade. It’s easy for us to think that is the case today with abortion, but I believe William Wilberforce would not take such a view.
Whilst our hearts go out to those who have chosen abortion, there should now be much greater emphasis on the alternatives that exist. Many of us would like to see far more support those who have made such a significant and difficult decision – but whilst we recognise the trauma many women have gone through, we also have a duty to ‘Speak up for those who cannot speak for themselves’ (Proverbs 31).
The Psalmist says ‘My frame was not hidden from you when I was made in the secret place.’
With abortions in the UK reaching 600 a day, it seems to me that the ‘secret place’, is one of the most dangerous places to be in modern day Britain.
As with my great ancestor, the battle took many years, even decades. But now, with the passage of time we look back in horror at how we devalued human life. I truly believe we will look back in years to come, repent and ask forgiveness for what we let happen to the unborn child.
There is something deeply depressing about a society in which abortion is so easy, yet alternatives such as adoption are made to appear so difficult..

Lovesick. =)

Right now, I can tell you that I am completely and 100 percent lovesick. I have discovered a love beyond anything that tries to compare, no one is like it and nothing can match it. There is a Man that has won me over. He brings me flowers, He whispers sweet nothings into my ear, He tells me I'm beautiful, He gives me sunsets, He wraps His arma around me and lets me cry into His shoulder, He holds my hand when I am scared, He cries when I cry, He never leaves my side, His love is perfect. If you havent figure it out yet, this amazing Man is Christ Jesus. In His love I have found life and hope and joy. I feel His love stronger today that I ever have before in my life, and I love Him more than I ever have in my life. He romances my heart, and I long and reach out to touch His heart the only way I know how...with worship and showing Him love. It is in the secret place that He pours Himself out, and I can pour my heart out to Him. I love Him more than words could ever express. Love gives all. It is out of love that God gave His only Son, Jesus...all He had...so that Jesus could give all He had, His life up till the point of death on a cross. He gave all, and it is out of love for the King that we need to give all. When you love someone with true love, it is not hard to lay your life down for them because you arent thinking of yourself. Lay it down, surrender. Be weak, don't be afraid of weakness because let me tell you something; only weak people pray, only weak people fast, only weak people worship. They are those that admit their complete dependance on God and not out of their own strength. The door does not broaden to admit the weak and desperate as well, the door to God's presence narrows and only the weak may enter. I want to know Christ. I want to know Christ. I want to know Christ. That is my heart's desire, to know Him. When I lock eyes with the God-Man Jesus, I want there to be an existing relationship, I want there to be a history of intimacy, I want to know the one I will spend eternity with. He is my bridegroom, He is my lover. When I lock eyes with the King, I want to alerady know Him. I want to touch the superior pleasures that completely blow all earthly pleasures out of the water. I want to know His love and His heart, because His love is better than all else. I challenge you to fall in love the way I have. Love gives all.

Leeland: Enter this Temple.

At Desperation this weekend one of the worship leaders was Leeland. They are one of my favorite bands! Amazing! Its like one minute he is immersed in worship, and the next he whips out a Bible and starts preaching...Incredible! This is one of my favorite songs.